Fate

Fate can be beautiful and also cruel.

At this moment of my life stage, people leaves.
And it's pain feeling this way.

There's a girl seem to be my precious sister ever.
While we're still kids. We meet everyday.
Once, we wake up we'll look for each other and stick together till night.
Then, she moved.
We meet every half a year, then once a year.
Now, i don even remember the when we was the last time we met.
I just somehow miss the little bossy girl.

Im always having that naive thinking that i want to keep in touch with ALL of them.
yea i mean all.
Growing up make me realize that's nearly impossible.
Everyone have their own path.
Everyone start to be different as things we experienced.
and there comes the distance, the gap.

Just that im not good at letting people go.
i misses them everytime, everyone.
bt yet, i don have the guts to call them up or mayb have lunch.
im afraid to interrupt their life.
or maybe i couldnt resist a no?

I just miss you peoples.
Fate make us meet each other.
No matter the bads or the goods. Memories stay. 

new place. new life. strange faces

coming here all alone was it really the right decision?
cant the future of my social circle.

is not that i don want to meet up new people and hang out with them.
it's just that it's soo difficult to get into them ~
most of them had their own gang.

yea~ there's a girl who people see us as best friend.
i dont see it that way.
i might be my problem.
i just cant stand it when some people can just simply make promise.
when u talk big and do nothing, that's the most irritating stuff .
its quite a gap between us.

and i have a bad temper
yes. i admit.

Figuring out the new world.

Its been a week. Degree Life. New peoples. New environment.

I've been reliable the past years.
No matter where i went im always lucky to have a someone.
They'll be with me. Allow me to be flighty like a kid. Go crazy with me.

But, this time. My luck seems to be away at the moment.
I'd pray for a someone to accompany me to the soo unfamiliar place.
Obviously, i end up alone up there.

Now is when i met different kinds of people.
For the first few days, im totally a weirdo feeling soo much of awkward-ness.
It makes me felt strange and soo #foreveralone.
Miss my friends back in the city.

Till the last day of class. A girl approach me.
She told me she was alone and ask whether she could join me.
Of course its a big YES from me.
As we talk, it was nice and there's no awkward thingy around.
Its great.

Hope the both of us could be great friends one day.

It’s not easy to have friends that match you much.
Seriously, this is all about fate.

瘋起來的時候非常瘋狂,誰也阻止不了
安靜 堅強 掩飾內心的脆弱

Moving forward

i'd speak it out.
everything.
wat im afraid, concern bout, sad for, regret for.
him.
sometimes i do talk bout him bt not everything.
i knew i wil b shedding tears. so i hold on.
tis time i let it tear.

im lucky enough tat there's someone willing to listen and help me.
she's not afraid of my tears.
she told me.

its not about how to forget or let go.
its about how are u goin to admit and accept

just a glance.

and that person is in ur mind.

one more peep.

and that person is in heart.

no intersection.

bt u misses that person.
for years.

curious, regrets, unbeliveable.

this is what they call it

soulmate. 

交心

我。交朋友 是 交心的。

每次的利用与背叛
让我对现实产生了恐惧
受够了

也许这还不是最恐怖的
可我不想承受了

必须少一点 的 在乎
必须少一点 的 诉苦

尽量 只以文字发泄

应该不会疯掉吧




Nobody is picture perfect.
i forgive when you apologize

bt now. i only forgive for a sincere apologize
i knew ur attitude wasnt good.
bt i gave u chance again and again.
and u used it again and again

now i have learnt.
not every friend u make will be your best friend
not every friend u have treat you sincerely by their heart


its enough being a dumb.

水瓶座对于自己不喜欢的人基本上是三懒政策：
懒得搭理、懒得说话、懒得联系。
想顾全对方的面子，不知道如何拒绝对方。
特别希望对方能看出自己做法的端详后就别理自己就好了。

Pain

During that time

none of my friends was there

felt helpless

he came

bt i c his shadow

This time

my friends were here

bt i don talk much bout it

instead i was laughing

you came

and i still c his shadow around

bt one day his shadow will be fade away by a him

 

对待感情弱智的人，

骄傲的人，

遇到爱情就卑微的人，

念旧的人，

表面装作无所事事内心却纠结无比的人，

粗枝大叶的人，

不喜欢给别人结果却善于等待别人给予结果的人，

单纯人。

该怎么办

害怕
不知去向